Originally published under Life Matters in the Santa Monica Daily Press on April 4, 2013.
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Dear New Shrink,
My fiancé is everything I would want in a man and most of the time we
have a very pleasant relationship and a lot of fun together. I love him
deeply most of the time and I think he loves me. He did ask me to marry
him.
But I think he has a mean streak. He doesn’t have a temper, he has
never been physically abusive with me and I don’t think he ever would
be. So it’s nothing like that. But, sometimes he just cuts me to the
core with his words. He can be so critical of me and it seems to come
out of nowhere and for no good reason.
When he starts this, I do not want to be around him. And later when
he wants to make love, I can’t stand the thought of him touching me. He
acts as if nothing is any different. I would estimate that this happens
about 10 to 20 percent of the time.
I really need to understand what I can do and how to deal with this before I move forward with an actual marriage.
Signed,
Confused
Dear Confused,
I am glad to hear that you enjoy a lot in common, have fun together
and, for the most part, have a pleasant relationship. You should
definitely capitalize on this.
However, what you write to me indicates that you have three problems, not just one.
First, you say that you think that your fiancé loves you, but it
doesn’t sound like you are very certain. You definitely do not want to
marry someone who doesn’t really love you. Yes, he asked you to marry
him and hopefully you are correct in what it means, but since I don’t
know any of the other circumstances, I recommend that you honestly ask
yourself if there might be any other reason or motive. I know it is not
so romantic but better to know now if there is something a little off
then to come up against it down the road when you are already hooked in.
Your second problem is the one that you point to, which is his
criticizing of you. What is this about? Really, he cuts to your core,
but on the other hand says he loves you and wants to marry you?
There are a number of reasons he might be behaving this way. He may
be angry with you about something and unable to express it in any other
way. Perhaps he is angry with someone else or another situation and just
takes it out on you. It may be that he is very self-critical and it is
easier to project it onto you. Maybe he wants you to be different than
you really are.
All of this is a problem and it does need to be nipped in the bud! If
not, you will be living with it and the growing resentment that you
already have, which is your third problem.
Nothing kills a relationship faster and more efficiently than resentment!
If there is anything specific that he tends to criticize you about, pay attention to what it is and what this may mean.
There is a very correct saying that goes “when you point your finger, remember that three are pointing back at you!”
This is to be taken seriously and might help you understand what is going on with him.
As for staying in the relationship or moving forward, you are correct
to think twice. If this 20 percent causes you to feel so terrible and
to want to remove yourself from him as you describe this is a serious
problem that if not addressed will just get worse.
Marriages or serious relationships should be made up of love, respect
and mutual admiration and trust. There should be equality and at some
level you should be best friends.
I don’t know that there is any room for criticism in a love
relationship. It just hurts and causes resentment. Perhaps I am just
splitting hairs but they are important ones.
It is fine to tell our partners what we like or don’t like, to share
our feelings when we are hurt or bothered by something, but it does not
need to be in the form of criticism, i.e., putting the other down,
sarcasm that hurts the other. This is not only poor communication but
also causes unnecessary pain which breeds resentment that more often
than not leads to the end of a relationship.
Lastly, you might want to consider pre-marital counseling. It just
might save both of you from a lot of heartache. At the very least start
talking to him about this and start soon.
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